Dear Big Red,
Grandma I wish you didn't leave us. We love you too much! But you were in so much pain all the time and I know that with out your memory you were so frustrated with life. So at the same time of being sad and angry that you had to leave, we are all so happy that you are healthy again and you can remember and that you are no longer suffering. You wanted more but you were trapped. Today I wanted to write you a letter to reminisce of all the great times you brought your family.
Red we couldn't have had a more fun Christmas if it weren't for you. You and Tricky made it the funnest and biggest production of the year. Because of you and your fun traditions and love for partying, the Rasmussen Christmas Eve party will continue for years. You made every Easter so mysterious! We all got rich off of the nickles you would tape on the back of every candy and love to search high and low through Brookstone to find our Easter Bunny presents. I'll never forget when you hid mine in the window well!
I wanted to let you know how much I loved you and loved the tenderness of your heart. In the time I knew my Grandma I never heard you yell at anyone. You were too happy. You had no reason to be mad at any one. I loved that you were always game to go on trips. California has been a fun tradition yet again started with you. We will miss seeing that big red hair at the beach and you thinking you could handle the California waves. Ha ha the image of big red's Big Hair just drenched will never leave any of our minds. The cabin will not be the same with out you. It will feel void of its fun/loving Sharon. But we will still go up every summer and winter to be there as a family remembering the times we had with you. And I'm sure you'll be sitting with us with Tricky and your Coca cola.
These are some funny traits about you that I will never forget:
- You never left the house with out your "eyes on"..... meaning mascara and blue eye shadow
- You always always ALWAYS had your red lipstick on. Even until you left us.
- That red hair.... oh what more can we say about big red's red hair.
- You never went without a toothpick
- You loved the Mormon Tab
- You always had to have either a Coke or a Dr. Pepper
- When your disease was bad, I spent the night with you. I got scared of the big empty house we were in and asked if I could sleep with you, this is the answer i got, "Well sure honey......... (giggles) Ya big baby!"
- When I asked you what granddaughter I was you told me, "Oh.... i know... the pretty one" with a big smile on your face because we both knew you had forgotten.
Grandma Sharon I will miss you so much... it got hard near the end but I am so happy you are with your love. Grandpa has waited a long long time to have his Sharon back. Your family that is still left behind will remember all the fun times we had with you over the years. Heaven has gained quite the angel. I love you and look forward to when we can all be together again.
It was very hard to be in the room as my last grandparent passed away. We all watched her struggle for so long and the past 5 months were so hard on her. She deserved more than to suffer. Now she is happy, she has her memory back, she is with her love and she can watch her family grow from heaven. I can only imagine the reunion between my grandma and her husband, her sister in law, her dad who she lost at 8 and her own mom. Not to mention the little muts she loved so much. She was truly a party animal so I'm sure heaven is quite the party with her now.
I will never forget that room at Sunrise Assisted Living. It was so full of the spirit. I can't imagine not knowing the Plan of Salvation and loosing a loved one like we did last night. It would be so much harder! I will never, never forget the image of my suffering Grandma getting a blessing from Tyler and my own husband as she was trying to go to her Father in Heaven. Thinking of it now brings tears to my eyes. The love I felt for Davis was imeasurable, the grateful feeing for the priesthood was unreal and the love I felt for my Grandma was so strong. I will never forget that moment.